The Royal Hotel
Pike's Run, Texas
December 21, 1882

Truly hurried down the boardwalk, keeping her head low against the wind. Mr. Taylor had allowed her to keep the coat, so she was properly covered this time.

She made her way to the hotel, going over the discussion she’d had with Mr. Dawson, the editor of the paper. Mrs. Forrester, owner of Forrester’s Tailoring, had sent her in his direction.

Truly had finally worked up the courage to ask the lady for her help and not only had the kind businesswoman offered her a job as a seamstress, she’d told her that Stephen Dawson might give her a few other ideas. Truly wasn’t much of a sewer, though she could complete needlepoints.

When she’d sat down with Mr. Dawson, she’d explained that all she could really do was host and plan events. His face had broken into a smile, and he’d announced, “Then the owners of the Royal Hotel might surely want to offer you a job.”

She’d been taken aback. The hotel might need some sort of hostess? Even if they did, that didn’t mean they’d hire her. Of course, she’d also have to approach the handsome Mr. Taylor to gain the position. She hoped he didn’t inquire as to why she needed employment.

Nervousness assailed her, but she had no time to dwell on the idea. She had three days left. If this didn’t work, what would she do? She didn’t have the luxury of debate any longer.

With a deep breath, she entered the hotel, lifting her head and deciding to speak to Mr. Taylor right then. But the newcomers in the lobby made her stop short.

“There you are!” her younger sister, Missy, squealed. “We have been all over for you.” Missy threw her arms around Truly’s neck, then pressed a kiss to her cheek. “Oh, you’re frozen.”

Numb with shock, Truly couldn’t reply. But she pulled at Missy’s hold, not wanting her embrace. Not ever again.

“Princess,” her father said, smiling his bright smile, his perfect dimples showing. John Cunningham came toward her, his suit of fine quality, his tan, winter coat reaching to his knees. “We couldn’t leave you alone at Christmas.” As he hugged her, she saw over his shoulder…

Henry.

He lounged on the counter, a flirtatious gleam in his eyes.

She couldn’t bear it. Something inside her snapped, and she did a half-turn, her gaze colliding with Mr. Taylor’s, who stood behind the registration counter. “Mr. Taylor, might I have a word with you in private?”

If she’d stunned him, it didn’t show. He smiled politely and inclined his head. “This way, Miss Cunningham.”

Without looking at her family, or…Henry, she strode forward, her head high. As she followed the hotel owner, her sister called uncertainly, “Truly?”

But Truly ignored her. She walked into the office situated off to the right of the front desk. The door shut, and she found herself in a room with leather furniture, plush rugs and brass sconces. A desk made of Cherrywood dominated the space, its surface tidy and neatly ordered with a blotter, inkwell and stacked ledgers.

“Have a seat,” Mr. Taylor offered.

She kept her spine rigid as she accepted, perching on the edge of the wingback chair. Her chest rose and fell rapidly, and she tried to cool her fury at the uninvited presence of her family.

Mr. Taylor lowered himself next to her. “I hope you don’t mind me being close. The desk belongs to my father, and I prefer him to use that chair.”

The joking tone startled her. When she looked at him, a twinkling light shone in his eyes. She folded her hands in her lap and managed to say, “I can certainly understand. There’s no reason to give ourselves undue stress.”

He grinned.

She appreciated that he tried for lightness. She took a long, slow cleansing breath. Silence hung between them, though without tension.

He rested easily, propping his elbow on the arm of his chair as he studied her.

She glanced at him, then looked about the room. Where to start. What to say. Right now, all she wanted to do was rage about her family’s cruelty and rudeness.

“We can sit in here until they leave.”

She flinched and met his gaze. “I suppose my upset was evident.”

He shrugged. “Don’t worry about that.”

With another deep exhale, some of her anger left her at his kindness. “Perhaps you’ve wondered why I’m renting a room, and why my stay has been so long.”

“You don’t have to tell me.”

She quirked her mouth at the corner. “But you have wondered.”

He opened his mouth to speak, then closed it. A sheepish expression came over his face. “You still don’t have to tell me.”

After several moments of quiet where her thoughts raced and stumbled over each other, she said, “I’d like to say it out loud, if you wouldn’t mind.”

His eyes shone with permission.

She took a deep breath, then said, “My sister, Missy, is…” Pain gripped her, making her throat grow raw. “Well, she’s spoiled and selfish. When she wants something, she gets it.” Truly gulped. “And she decided she wanted Henry Farris.”

Mr. Taylor listened patiently; his posture still easy.

“The trouble was…Henry was my fiancé.”

The statement made Mr. Taylor’s jaw go slack. “Say again?”

Truly lifted her hands in helplessness. “I was engaged. To Henry Farris. I’m sure you saw him.”

Mr. Taylor inclined his head.

“He’s charming. Almost too charming, now that I can see him clearly. He’s beautiful. And unapologetic, which made him seem confident to me, but now I know he has no conscience.” A knife twisted in her heart. And in her back. “When Missy went after him, he, well, I guess he decided she was more his style.”

The lines of Mr. Taylor’s face hardened. “So, he broke it off with you to marry your sister?”

Truly nodded. “It was…the most humiliating thing. I had to help her plan her wedding.” Tears bit, but she squeezed her eyes shut. Once she had control, she looked at Mr. Taylor and continued, “And even worse, my father supported it. He told me that Missy was better suited to him, which he was right, but he had no care for my pain. He told me to be a lady and not show emotion. Which I did, but only to protect myself.

“He wanted me to continue to run his home and social calendar. Mother passed away almost four years ago. After Henry and Missy were married, I carried on. But soon I grew tired of being the object of pity, of laughter. I packed a bag, sold as much as I could, and fled.” She gripped her hands tightly in her lap. “I suppose they’ve been looking for me.” She shook her head. “I can’t imagine why.”

Mr. Taylor lowered his arm, his face still stony. “People can be callous, and they enjoy watching the pain they inflict.”

His explanation only broke her heart even more. “But…why?”

“If I knew, I’d tell you. I have people in my family similar to people in yours.” He shifted in his seat. “They don’t live here anymore. My mother was, is, a tyrant. She made our lives Hell, and several months ago, my father had had enough. He put her on a train and is making her live with her sister until she changes her ways.”

Truly pressed her lips together. “I wish I had the ability to send my family away.”

A slow grin came over Mr. Taylor’s face. “Well, I can do it. Pike’s Run has a boardinghouse, and I can explain that their presence in my hotel is offensive.”

He barely knew her and wanted to protect her. She recalled his tender care as he’d wrapped her in the quilts. She smiled. “While I would love that, I believe I need to face them. I’m not sure of their purpose, but I’m not going home.”

Her time had come. She’d given herself the perfect entrance into the discussion of employment. “However, I must have a position as my funds are running out.” She drew herself up. “Mr. Dawson advised me that you might be in need of someone to host parties and balls for you, and I would like to offer my—”

Mr. Taylor leaned forward, his brow lifting in surprise. “Are you serious?”

His abrupt reaction made her pause, and she couldn’t answer him. Had she done the wrong thing?

“You want to run the events we have here?”

“Well, I, um—”

“You’re hired.”

Her breath strangled in her throat.

“Hell, you’re an angel. A beautiful—” He shook his head. “Thank you. Yes, please. We’re having a Christmas Eve social, and while it’s all planned out, if you could deal with the preparations, I think I’ll pay you whatever you ask.”

His words, the immense relief on his face, as if she’d just saved his life, made her emit a chuckle. Then she doubled over with hilarity.

He smiled at her. “Was I little too anxious?”

She laughed even harder.

“If you wait a few more seconds before accepting, you might hear me beg.”

She could barely breathe her mirth was so strong. When she finally could catch her breath, she nodded. “I accept.”

He sat back, a triumphant expression on his face. “Thank God. You can start now. Hell, I had you starting the second the proposal came out of your mouth.”

She wiped a tear away from her eye. “I can’t tell you how I have agonized over my future. I must admit I hated the idea of leaving your hotel. It’s just beautiful.”

“We like it.” He slumped in his chair and stretched his legs out. “This place was mostly my mother’s doing, so we appreciate her for that, but she nearly killed my father to get it like this.”

She sobered. “I’m so sorry.”

He shook his head. “No need to be. When my sister got married, everything came to head, and Pa just couldn’t take it anymore. It’s sad, but we’re better off with her gone. Maybe someday she’ll return, but she’ll have to do a lot of changing before he’ll fetch her back.”

Again, she wished she had the elder Mr. Taylor’s power to make her family leave. However, she needed to face them. Now. Fine. She rose. “I thank you for your time. I need to find my family, but also get started on my new job. Whom should I speak to first?”

He stood. “Let me take you to Opal. She’s the head maid. Pretty sure you’re saving her life, too. She’s not a fan of trussed up parties.”

As they smiled at each other, she gazed into his eyes. His warm eyes. And she remembered his kindness when she was cold. The way he’d wrapped her up. The care in his touch. Desire flooded her, and her throat went dry.

Awareness lit his brown depths. His lids lowered.

Her breath came quicker. Oh, dear.

He swallowed.

She opened her mouth. “I—”, but her voice strangled on whatever she was going to say. She really had no coherent thought.

He cleared his throat. “Let’s get you introduced to Opal, then…”

“Then?”

After a couple seconds, he muttered, “Hell, if I know.” He shoved his fingers through his hair then smoothed his beard. “If you need help with your family, you let me know. I’ll take great pleasure in tossing Farris on his ass.”

​His offer pleased her more than it should. “Thank you, Mr. Taylor.”

He nodded once then stepped toward the door.

​She followed, desire still clinging to her.

The Royal Hotel
Pike's Run, Texas
December 18, 1882

“Keep your distance, McClain,” Alfred warned, narrowing his eyes at the sly gambler.

McClain smirked. “What’re you gonna do about it? I’m not breaking any laws.”

“No, but you can get the hell out of my hotel.” Alfred put his hands on his hips.

Red rose in the man’s cheeks. “Where the hell am I supposed to stay?”

“I don’t care. Move on. There’s saloons in Houston. Isn’t that more your style, anyway?”

With a sneer McClain said, “I guess I don’t have a choice, do I?”

Alfred gave no reply.

Maids and bellhops hurried past the men who squared off in the lobby, doing their best to keep a wide berth. McClain was well-known in Pike’s Run. He bounced from city to city, looking for high-stakes poker games or the easy con.

After giving a scoff, McClain stormed toward the stairs. “Guess I’ll go pack.” He looked at Alfred over his shoulder. “But you can bet I won’t forget this.”

Alfred chuckled, unafraid. He regularly sparred with his brother-in-law and had a right hook that had knocked out many of his opponents. McClain wasn’t a killer. A liar and schemer, yes. But he didn’t have the guts to attack a man, especially one who had him by a good six inches like Alfred did.

Once McClain had disappeared, Alfred returned to his ledgers. But his thoughts focused on Miss Cunningham. From his vantage point, he could see her. And she was lovely. Everything a woman ought to be. A breath of fresh air. A calming presence.

Something was wrong, though. Ten days with no seeming intent to leave. No family arriving. He was growing concerned, but he wouldn’t approach her. She had a right to her privacy, and he would leave her be. As long as she was safe, he amended.

He checked the Granddaughter clock near the double doors leading outside to Main Street. Two more hours, then he’d be in the thick of planning with the Auxiliary.

He had to concentrate on the accounts and get one thing done before he lost the rest of the morning. Slowly he went through receipts, carefully penning values and subtracting them from the profit.

“Mr. Taylor?” a feminine voice called his name.

He jerked up his head. Miss Cunningham stood at the counter, an easy expression on her face. He cleared his throat. “Miss Cunningham. What can I do for you?” Damn, he would do just about anything to see her smile.

“It seems I might owe you thanks for diverting Mr. McClain from my table.” Gratitude shone in her hazel eyes.

He made a dismissive gesture, then glanced at the stairs. The man hadn’t come down yet. He’d send a bellhop to hurry him along in a moment. “It’s no trouble. You’re safe here.”

A hesitant look came over her face. “Yes, thank you. I feel quite secure.”

Then why did she seem worried? Should he ask? Was she in danger? Before he could determine what to do, she said, “I’m going to the church for a little while.” She gave him a forced smile. “I just wanted to thank you for your assistance.”

​He nodded. As she left, he couldn’t stop himself from watching her leave.

As soon as Truly returned to the hotel, she immediately dashed into the front salon where a fire blazed. Sitting in the empty church without her coat had chilled her considerably. Though the building had sheltered her, the cold had seeped through.

No one else lingered in the salon, thank goodness. She preferred not to suffer looks of curiosity for why she hadn’t properly protected herself. She sat in the chair closest to the hearth and let the heat warm her.

“Miss Cunningham?”

She swiveled to the entrance and found Mr. Taylor with a concerned expression. “You’re shivering.”

She flushed, but before she could open her mouth to give some explanation, he darted out of sight. Well…how odd.

But, while she liked looking at him, she was glad he was gone. His presence was too much, and how in the world could she tell him she’d sold her coat? Most assuredly that would reveal she had money troubles and might prompt more questions.

Humiliation gripped her, and she closed her eyes against the pain.

“Here,” a male voice called.

She looked up to see Mr. Taylor coming toward her with a coat and three quilts. “Oh, you didn’t have to—”

He put the coat around her shoulders. “It was left behind yesterday.” With a determined jaw, he knelt in front of her, then started unfolding the blankets and tucking them around her.

So struck was she with his care, she couldn’t speak and allowed him to minister to her. His act of kindness made her heart squeeze with longing. She gritted her teeth to keep tears from forming.

“There,” he said, rising. “Is that better?”

She paused before answering, detecting fear shining behind the concern in his gaze. He was afraid? Why? But she very well couldn’t ask. She opened her mouth, needing to reply, and managed to squeak out, “Yes, thank you. It’s perfect.”

He nodded once, watching her with that same expression. Except for the popping of the fire, silence fell around them. She wished he would sit down next to her. She would so like to know him.

But what would it matter? She had no trust in her decisions, had no strength to love again. Not that she would fall for Mr. Taylor, but…

Oh, what was the use? She lowered her gaze to her lap.

He cleared his throat. “Good. As long as you’re comfortable.” He cleared his throat again. “I’ll let you enjoy the quiet.”

When he was gone, she let out a slow, aching breath. Her time at the church had given her peace, but no insight. If she couldn’t go home, then she had to find a job. The trouble was, she had no idea who would hire her. She had no skills.

She could play the piano. She could order an efficient tea cart. She could dress for every occasion and play the proper and gracious hostess.

Her entire life she’d prepared herself to be a wife of a businessman. And when the time had come, her well-laid plans had crashed around her.

Now she had no safe place. No prospects. No ability to care for herself.

She’d never washed a dish. Never polished a lick of silver. Never gardened. She’d had servants all of her growing years. Tutors. Painting lessons. She could speak French, Spanish and Italian.

What could that do for her?

Perhaps, along with the rest of her inadequacies, she didn’t know enough of the world to actually make this decision. Maybe she ought to seek someone’s guidance.

​An image of the handsome hotel owner flashed before her eyes, but she cringed inside, not wanting him to know her shame. Well, she would search out someone. If she didn’t, come Christmas Day she’d be out in the cold.

December 21st

“Despite the amount of food,” Rupert Taylor said, “the Auxiliary didn’t exceed the budget I gave them.”

Alfred nodded while he leaned back against the leather tufted chair in his father’s office at the hotel. “That was Liddy’s doing. She’s a businesswoman and consistently brought up the cost of each idea the ladies had.”

“And now it’s all done.” Rupert signed the last check with a flourish. “We’ll have a nice party and dance the night away.”

Alfred grimaced then swiped a hand down his face, hoping his father hadn’t seen. “I’ll make sure the dining room runs smoothly.”

With a narrow-eyed look, his father questioned, “No revelry for you?”

So far, Alfred had managed to hide his distaste for the season from his father, sister, and brother-in-law. But this party was going to force him to either reveal how he felt, or fake enjoyment. And he couldn’t pretend. Not with the people he loved. “We haven’t spent a Christmas together in seven years, so…” He let out a breath, the memories rushing back. The coughing. The thinness of her hands. The fear in her eyes. All his fault.

With a curse, he shoved to his feet, storming to the door. He couldn’t have this conversation.

“Son,” Rupert called.

Alfred stopped with his hand on the knob.

A beat of silence passed then his father said, “If you need to excuse yourself from…well, from whatever events bring you pain, do so. I don’t need any explanation. But I’m here if you want to unburden yourself.”

Telling his father that an innocent’s death was on his hands might unman him, and Alfred doubted he could do it. “When Christmas is over, it’ll be all right.”

​As he left, his father said nothing.

Pike’s Run, Texas
December 18, 1882

Alfred Taylor shoved his fingers through his short, brown hair, smoothed his hand down his beard, then set his bowler hat on his head. He stepped into the frigid wind and bright rays of early morning. The wide porch of his father’s Victorian home held potted plants, each covered with a cotton sheet to protect them from the biting cold. Red bows circled the posts, declaring the season with a bold swathe of color.

Alfred grimaced. Damned holiday season. There was nothing to celebrate this time of year. Not for him. Instead of Christmas bells, he heard hacking coughs. Instead of imagining wrapped presents, he envisioned medicine bottles littering a bedside table.

And the memories were all his fault.

He scowled as he stalked down the road toward Main Street. Quit remembering. Move on. It’s done.

As others drove past him on their way to the center of town, Alfred nodded in greeting. He pulled the lapels of his jacket closer together, but nothing could buffet the sharp, icy wind.

He mentally ticked off the items he needed to complete at the hotel. There was a lot to do. The ladies of the town had insisted on a Christmas Eve dance, and since he and his father ran the fanciest hotel west of the Mississippi, he had to help. Which meant a meeting with the Ladies Auxiliary. His head throbbed already.

Thank God his mother didn’t run it anymore.

When he reached the intersection of First and Main, he turned left, climbing the three steps to the boardwalk in front of Forrester’s Tailoring. As he neared A Slice of Heaven, the aroma of fresh, baked bread reached his nose.
He breathed in deep and found a smile. A quick stop wouldn’t hurt.

He ducked inside the bakery and found Sugar Boswell sliding a tray of Danish into one of the many display cases.

The blue-eyed, curly-haired, redhead smiled when she straightened. “Morning, Alfred.”

“Mornin’, Sugar.” He stepped up to the counter, not bothering to peruse the menu. He knew it by heart.

“The usual?”

“Please.” His mouth watered in anticipation.

“I heard your chef wants to serve oysters for supper at the Christmas Eve social.” She plucked a strawberry Danish from its ceramic stand and handed it to him.

“Claude thinks it’ll propel him into infamy. Not sure why.” Alfred didn’t have anything to do with the meal for the party. The Auxiliary was making all the decisions. He just had to sit and listen and approve. Though he didn’t feel he could safely disapprove, so why he was needed escaped him.

After he paid for his indulgence, she said, “Well, it’ll make the night more special. But who knows who’ll eat them?” She scrunched up her nose.

He shrugged then savored his first bite of strawberry goodness. The fruit was perfectly sweet, the bread just a touch salty. Sugar Boswell and Eliska Black had a rare talent. As he chewed, he replied, “It’ll be interesting.” He held up the pastry. “Thanks.”

She nodded.

He left, enjoying his treat as he walked. When he reached the hotel, he shoved the last bite in his mouth, licked his lips and turned the gleaming brass knob. The night clerk stood at the register counter, handing a key to a new guest.

Christopher Peabody smiled beneath this blond, handlebar mustache. “Morning.” A bellhop helped the customer to their room.

“Morning.” Alfred crossed the carpet of golds, reds and greens. The white, oak paneling showed off the various oil paintings of landscapes, while the arches leading into the front salon and dining hall sported bowers of evergreen and more red bows. Why red? Why that color?

An image of a blood-stained handkerchief passed through his mind. Damn it. Get the hell out of my head!

He rounded the register desk, smoothing a hand over the mahogany surface. “How many new guests?”

“Nine.” Peabody fiddled with his tie. “Three of them are children.”

“Opal won’t be happy, but she’ll live.” Alfred tugged the book to him, checking over the rooms that were still occupied. Seven days left until Christmas Eve. Which was their slowest day considering the season. Most people were with their families by that time.

Opal appeared, her white cap a stark contrast to her black curls and chocolate skin. She had her hands folded at her waist, and her talisman, a watch made of silver, pinned to her crisp, black uniform. She arched an eyebrow at Alfred. “When will the ladies arrive?”

He hooked his thumb in his vest pocket. “Ten.” Three hours, three, before he had to listen to the chatter. If his sister came, then work would get done. Kathryn Talbut, the judge’s wife, led the group, but she enjoyed a good gossip session and allowed meetings to derail when anything of note needed to be relayed.

But not Corinne. His sister knew how his head pounded with all the circling of conversation. She had a way with the ladies, but, of course, she’d learned in the trenches. Their mother had, at one time, been at the helm of everything. Corinne had honed her negotiation skills at the elbow of the self-proclaimed matriarch of Pike’s Run, and she was damned good at it.

“All right. This should be the last, correct?” Opal glared at him, as if he alone was responsible for the timeliness of the decisions.

“I sure hope so.” He grinned at his head maid. She ran a tight ship, and he and his father were grateful. “I’ll do my best to get them out of here.”

She huffed then asked, “Refreshments in the office or the back parlor?”

“Parlor.”

With a sharp nod, she spun on her heel and left.

Peabody gave a low whistle. “She’s a general, eh?”

The northern accent reminded Alfred of his years in Washington, D.C. Clerking for a U.S. Representative from Virginia had allowed him to spend a lot of time with delegates from the New England states. “The best of the best.” He let out a puff of air. “All right. You can go.”

The man yawned. “See you this evening.”

“Yep.”

As Peabody left, Alfred removed his hat and coat and hung them on the tree near the register counter. Boxes for the rooms lined the wall behind him. Envelopes peeked out from the holes, waiting for their recipients to pick them up.

After another perusal of the book, he noted that Miss Cunningham still rented room 21. He gritted his teeth and struggled to tamp down the interest humming inside him.

She was probably married.

But she wore no ring.

And she’d been in Pike’s Run for ten days.

No one knew why.

Or no one had told him why.

Not that he needed to know. Or should know. Or cared to know.

​He grimaced then shoved the record away with a fist. He had accounts to balance.

Truly Cunningham tucked a blonde tendril behind her ear then counted her remaining funds. Not much. She swallowed passed the lump of fear that had permanently lodged in her throat nine months ago.

At some point, she would have to find a job. Or…

No. She would not go home.

She let out a breath then snapped the money pouch closed. As she shoved it into her skirt pocket, she strode toward the door, her rose-pink skirt rustling against her ankles. She had to develop a plan. Today. She would force her mind to it.

First, she would have breakfast in the opulent dining room, then she would spend an hour in prayer at First United Methodist. Perhaps the peace would give her clarity.

When she reached the foyer, people hastened about, all with things to do and places to go. She had no such joy. Pain pressed on her breast, making it difficult to breathe. At what point would the knife in her back and heart stop twisting?

She blinked, clearing away threatening, hated, vile tears. No more. Never again.

Before entering the dining room, her gaze caught on Mr. Taylor, the younger. He stood at the desk, his head bowed over a ledger. His suit coat molded to his broad shoulders. His vest hugged his torso. His brown beard couldn’t hide the angled jawline.

He was a gorgeous man.

When he looked up, she averted her eyes and quickened her steps. What did his handsomeness matter? Henry had been attractive. Beautiful, really. Which had been the problem.

A waitress led Truly to her usual table near the French doors that led to one of the verandahs. The fire blazed in the hearth near the entrance, brass sconces hung from the white, oak paneling, linen covered all the tables, while china and crystal gleamed in the light streaming through the many exits to the luxurious porch.

Truly didn’t need to see a menu, but she took one anyway. Did the employees of the Royal Hotel wonder why she, a single female with no escort, was still here? Did Mr. Taylor wonder?

She hoped not. But…if he did, would he pry? Would he tell her she needed to move on? How long could someone stay in a hotel?

Pike’s Run had a boardinghouse, but she’d been so comfortable she hadn’t wanted to move. And she felt hidden here. There was so much activity she got lost in the shuffle. Well, rather, she hoped she got lost.

After ordering oatmeal, biscuits and coffee, Truly sat with her hands folded in her lap.

A man approached her table. He doffed his hat and smiled. “Ma’am, may I keep you company?”

She opened her mouth to refuse, but before she could, Mr. Taylor appeared.

“McClain?”

The gentleman frowned. “What is it?”

Mr. Taylor jerked his head toward the foyer. “I’ve got some information to pass along to you.”

With an irritated expression, Mr. McClain excused himself and strode toward the exit.

Before following his guest, Mr. Taylor locked gazes with Truly. A gentle light shone from his warm, brown eyes. He gave her a polite nod.

Surprise moved through her as he left. Had he interfered only to protect her from whoever Mr. McClain was? Perhaps his heart was as perfect as his face and form.

​But she wouldn’t determine the answer. Because it didn’t matter.

The light spilling from the windows of Elinor’s columned home on Caroline Street almost made Trap turn around. What in hell am I doing? I’ve gone and lost my sense.

But instead of retrieving his horse and fleeing, he continued up the steps and into the main hall. After taking in a deep breath and letting it out, Trap scanned the area. People he didn’t know milled about, wearing fine attire and glittering jewels. Trap refrained from tugging at his celluloid collar or pulling at the ends of his satin vest. He was done feeling as if he shouldn’t be a part of all aspects of her life. Something had been in her voice this morning, and he was going to find out what it was.

And if she wanted what he hoped she did, then the best way to prove to her that he wanted the same, was to wear this stiff get-up. As he maneuvered around clumps of people and servants who gaped at him, he worked out what he would say once he found her.

He drifted into the ballroom where an orchestra played and couples twirled. The sea parted, and there she was. His pulse sped up at the sight of her in a silk gown the color of a golden sunset. Her almond curls swayed as she talked with animation to the three people making up her group. She had yellow flowers in her hair, and he imagined plucking each one of them out and watching her luscious locks fall around her perfect shoulders. After she said yes to the question burning inside his heart.

When her spine went tense, he realized she sensed someone watched her. She turned, and he held his breath.
Her jaw went slack when she saw him. Wonder moved through her gaze as she slowly looked him over. Color rose in her cheeks, and when she lifted her eyes to his, a hopeful light looked back.

Confidence barreled through him, and he strode forward, took her in hand and away from the crowd. He didn’t care if the wealthy people left behind were offended.

She allowed him to lead her out of the room and down the hall, for once keeping quiet. With the beat of his heart roaring in his ears, he opened the door to the library and pulled her inside. Thankfully, no one else had found this out-of-the-way chamber.

He closed them inside then turned to face her. Candles flickered about the room, bathing her complexion in a soft and warm glow. He swallowed.

“Trap,” she breathed.

And the awe in her tone made him want to grab her close, but a few things had to be settled before he put his hands on her. “You look beautiful, Ellie.”

“You look…” She raised her hands and took a step forward.

He steeled himself against her touch as she ran her palms over his chest and shoulders.

“It’s Deacon’s,” he murmured. Trap’s foreman had been shocked when he’d asked to borrow the get-up.

Her lashes fluttered upward. “Why?” she said softly.

He wasn’t dense and knew what she really asked about. After a moment to collect himself, he explained, “I wanted you to see that I can fit into all parts of your life.”

Her brow knitted. “I…did I assume incorrectly about…” She clutched the lapels of his coat. “Did I hurt you in some way?”

With his heart his throat, he brushed his knuckles over her cheek. “No,” came his gravely reply. “All that hurts…is being away from you.”

She melted into him and raised her lips to his. They shared the softest and sweetest kiss, and his instincts told him he had not read her wrong. But he had to stop or they’d end up on the floor with her dress probably ruined. He stepped back, and he had to clench his hands into fists to keep from returning to the hungry look in her eyes.

“It’s time we change the nature of our relationship.”

Shock passed over her face. “You want to leave me?”

Had she lost her mind? Did she not see what he was wearing? “Woman, what gave you that idea? Do you see the suit I forced myself to put on?”

She swallowed but said nothing, her yearning, fearful and hopeful expression bolstering his courage. Whatever else happened tonight, he would leave this room with her promise to be his wife.

He lowered to a knee, and she gasped and took a step back.

“Ellie, I know we said we just wanted fun and companionship, but I’ve discovered that’s not enough for me.” His heart kicked against his ribs. “I want to look at you for the rest of my life. I want to be irritated by you, and exasperated with you, and…loved by you forever. I want your kiss, and only yours.”

She cupped her cheeks as tears hovered in her gorgeous green eyes.

“Will you marry me?”

“Trap,” she murmured, her voice shaking on his name. “Oh, my.” And she hurried forward and leaned down to set her mouth on his.

They kissed with abandon, with relief. Excitement poured through him in waves. She was going to be his.
She pulled back. “You love me?”

“Yes.”

With a smile filled with amazed disbelief, she lifted her head to the ceiling and laughed in delight. “I had hoped for so long.” She looked down at him. “I have loved you for so long, I—”

At her admission, he pushed to his feet and wrapped her in his arms, holding as tight as he could without hurting her. Then he took her lips again, and this time, he let hunger reign. He pushed her up against a wall of books, and she lifted her legs around his waist.

There was too much fabric between them. But the impediment reminded him of where they were. With a strength he didn’t know he had, he lifted his head, breathing heavily. “You’ve got a house full of people.”
She bit her lip as need shone in her eyes. “But I—”

“I’m not going anywhere.”

Her smile was as brilliant as the stars. “Never again.”

He cocked his head to the side. “Well, just on the drives, but this is my home now. You are my home.”

“I could go on the drives with you.”

At her foray into the old argument, he groaned and set his forehead to hers.

She lowered her legs as she launched into the debate they’d had for years. “Angelique went on a drive once, and I can throw a lasso and ride just as good as any man.”

“A cattle drive is no place—”

“I can do it.”

“It’s dangerous.”

“I’ll be careful.”

“The fellows won’t like it.”

“They all love me, and I’ll make sure we have fun.”

He groaned again. She had to ask now, when he was feeling all generous because she’d said yes. Damn it.  “Fine.” He was going to get reamed out into next Sunday by his foreman.

She crowed in delight and pushed at him to let her go.

He stepped back and watched as she picked up her skirts and clicked her heels together. “I’m gonna be a real cowgirl.”

He closed his eyes. “Deacon’s gonna kill me.”

She sidled up next to him, her gaze shining with happiness and desire. And love. “I won’t let him lay a finger on you.”

Her cute bravado always got to him. He fingered one of her curls, then picked a flower from her hair. “I feel much safer,” he said softly.

She chuckled.

​After a few moments of staring down at her beautiful face, he took her hand and together they left the room to join the party.

Elinor drifted from room to room of the stately manse she’d inherited from her late husband. She missed Walt. She’d loved him, of course, but not as much as she loved Trap Ferguson. She should have realized she’d fall for the cowboy. Why hadn’t she paid attention?

Five years they’d been together, which was four years and eleven months longer than she’d thought she’d get. And whenever he was set to return from a drive, she held her breath and prayed he’d come to her. And, so far, he always had. She should be content with what she had with him. Instead, she strolled the large home, despondent, yearning and wishing for more.

Servants scurried about preparing for the benefit for the hospital. Trap had left an hour ago, and there had been something in his eyes she couldn’t identify. Something in his kiss that had felt distant. Her heart pounded hard as anxiety made her stomach turn. She floated to the piano in the ballroom, and stood at the instrument, staring down at it.

Juliette, her housekeeper of ten years, barked orders around her as stands of flowers were placed about the room. But Elinor barely noticed. She reached out and depressed a key. She sighed as a rip rent her heart. She missed Trap. Gone only an hour, and she was already lonely for him.

Had she upset him too much with her high-flying acrobatics? Or…had their love-making not satisfied him? A lump of sadness formed at the base of her throat, and she tried to prepare herself. It was bound to happen; Trap leaving her, that was.

As tears threatened, she shot out of the ballroom and hastened to the kitchen. Once she arrived amidst the hustle and bustle, she called, “Daisy, can I do something?”

A white cap covered the black curls of the cook’s head, making her dark skin glow. She worked at the counter, kneading dough for either dessert or bread. As she arched an eyebrow, Daisy said, “You ought to be getting dressed.”

Elinor lifted her chin. “There’s enough time for that yet. I need to be busy.”

With a sigh and shake of her head, she nodded at a basket of unshelled peas. “Get to work, then.”

Grateful, Elinor found an extra apron, rolled up her sleeves and set her mind to her task.

May, 1886
Coyote Jack’s Wild West Show
The Main Tent
Houston, Texas

Elinor Armstrong stood on a high board twenty-five feet off the ground, holding a fly bar in two hands, preparing for a full somersault in mid-air. The practice hours at Coyote Jack’s allowed her the opportunity to learn the acrobatic feat. And the people of the traveling show had graciously indulged her whim and had taught her, a Houston debutante, how to fly. Her partner swung from the opposite side, hanging upside down by his knees with his arms outstretched.

Her heart in her throat, Elinor pushed off and gained height as she’d been taught. Once she and the catcher had synced their swings, she let go of the bar, curled her body and flipped in the air before latching on to his muscular arms. She crowed with delight at another successful trick then let go of him so he could release her to the waiting mattresses below.

As soon as her feet touched the stuffed canvas, she rolled as she’d been taught then sprang up with a flourish. Claps sounded, and she spun to bow to her audience of one, but came face-to-face with a thunderous scowl instead.

“You just took years of my life,” Trap Ferguson growled.

“You’re back,” she exclaimed, her excitement shooting to the stars. Grinning, she launched herself at him.

He caught her easily, as he could since he was the strongest and most masculine man in Texas, but he only held her for a second before pushing her back and squeezing her shoulders. “What the hell was that?”

“I’m learning to be an acrobat.” She batted her lashes at him.

“The hell you are,” he roared.

She rolled her eyes and disengaged herself from his grip. “I’ve got to practice more. Wait until you see.” She turned to head to the ladder, but he grabbed the ruffles on the back of her leotard and stopped her. “Trap,” she cried and tossed a look over her shoulder.

He pulled and she had no choice but to stumble backward. “Let go, you big lummox.” She tugged at his grip, but had no leverage and had to work to keep her feet under her instead.

Once behind the stands, he whipped her around, and as she drew breath to give him a piece of her mind, he slammed his lips onto hers. The kiss consumed her immediately, as it always did, and she threw her arms around his neck and shoved herself against him. Her cowboy lover. The man who inspired her as no other ever had.

He held her so tight, she could barely breathe, but she didn’t care. She’d missed him so much. But she wouldn’t dare tell him the secret wishes living in the deepest parts of her heart. If he knew, he’d leave.

Her head swam with desire and desperation. Did he understand her longing? Did he know its true nature? Did he realize the hunger he caused affected her clear to her soul?

When they came up for air, he set his forehead on hers, breathing heavily. “Elinor,” he rasped.

At some point, his hat had fallen. She ran her hand over his beard then pushed her fingers through his brown hair. “I wanted to show you what I learned while you were gone.”

“I already saw it. It scared me. I don’t want to see it again.” He kissed her on the nose. “But,” he exhaled. “It was amazing. Just like everything else you do.”

She smiled up at him and batted her lashes again.

He chuckled then took a step back. His expression turned steely and wolfish as his gaze raked over her frame. “What’s this you’re wearin’?”

“It’s a leotard.” She twirled for him, showing off the tights and short shirt. When she faced him again, the heat in his eyes made her pulse race.

“Seems like you should only wear that for me while we’re in your bedroom.”

She winked at him, but before she could give him a flirtatious reply, her humble audience interrupted their conversation.

“Well, Trap Ferguson,” Charlotte Allen called as she strode toward them, “if you’re through manhandling my darling friend and neighbor, perhaps you’ll tell me how your drive went.”

Charlotte was responsible for much of the development and advancement of the Houston economy, and she also owned her own stock of longhorns.

“Just fine, ma’am. Didn’t lose a steer this time.” He leaned over and picked up his Stetson.

“That’s lucky,” Charlotte answered, smoothing down the drapes of her narrow skirt.

“No luck, ma’am. Just hard work.”

The older woman lifted her brow at him then turned to Elinor. “I’m going to return home, dear. I believe you have an escort back and don’t need my buggy.” She chucked Elinor under the chin. “You, hoydenish girl, you.”

Elinor laughed as her friend left. When she was alone again with Trap, she turned to him. “We can go home now if you want.”

His gaze darkened. “I want.”

“I’ll have to change first.” She gave a little twirl then looked at him coyly over her shoulder before heading for the dressing area where her regular clothing awaited. Her heart thumped in happiness for the evening and days to come. After a three month separation, she was ready to drown in him. If only she could be sure he would always return.

* * * *

As his heart pounded hard and his body pulsed in pleasurable after-shocks of perfect love-making, Trap pulled Elinor close to his side while in her bed. The sweetest armful he’d ever known cuddled up against him and sighed in contentment.

“What did you think of my new talent?” she asked him.

It had scared him half to death. With his eyes closed, he said, “I already told you.”

“I wanna hear it again.”

And her wish was his command. The knowledge punched him in the gut, as it had been doing for the last year. “You were beautiful and graceful, but it scared me. I don’t wanna see it again.”

She let out a huff.

But he wasn’t gonna budge. Of course, that didn’t mean she would refrain from participating in the high flying feat. Elinor Armstrong did what she wanted, when she wanted. It was one of the many reasons why he…

Damn it. He couldn’t say it. Even in his head. But the words were there. Whispering. Threatening.

If he ever got stupid enough to tell her what he wouldn’t allow himself to admit even silently, their relationship would end. It was part of the deal. No demands. No rules. Just fun.

And they sure as hell had had fun. Everywhere. When he wasn’t on the spring or fall drive for the Swinging A ranch, he was traveling across Texas with her or tearing up the Houston night life with her by his side.

Elinor was a darling of Houston Society. Her father was a wealthy stock broker, and she was the widow of a railroad tycoon. She had a lot of money. Not that Trap cared about that. He could take care of himself, and she didn’t buy him anything. Not even his whiskey.

They’d been together for five years. And he hoped to God it never ended. He’d like to make it official, but he wouldn’t dare tell her that. Never mind the nature of their relationship, he was a cowboy, and while he’d made a ruckus with her and some of her rowdier society friends, he’d never escorted her to one of her more civilized events. She’d never asked him. No starched collars for him. No satin vest or fancy pocket watch.

Only chaps, denims and a white Stetson. He was not of her world. So he kept his mouth shut so he could have what he did.

“You might want to find a card game tonight,” she murmured.

He’d thought she’d fallen asleep. He was almost there. “Oh?”

“I’m hosting a party for the hospital. You’d be bored.”

His heart sank to his gut. “All right. I can kick back in the hotel or somethin’.” Had disappointment rang in his tone? He gritted his teeth and waited for her response.

A beat of silence passed, then she replied, “You’d have more fun.”

He snapped his eyes open. What had he heard in her voice? Sadness? Sorrow? If so…why?